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Hi...
baru saja menyelesaikan chat sama seorang teman yang namanya sebut saja AL, pria perancis umur 42 tahun.
gw udah kenal AL mungkin 6-7 bulan yang lalu. belum pernah ktemu, cuman chat2 aja.
dia pilot, dan suka liburan di Indonesia.
agak aneh, karena gw kenal dia dari Friendster...
hahaha, sudah lama ga buka, akhirnya iseng2 gw buka, gara2 dikantor pada ngebahas Friendster.
*btw, sudah berapa lama kalian ga cek friendster?*

ternyata ada bule yang "viewed" gw..
dan dia AL.
gw kirim pesan singkat di message-nya... salam kenal gitu deh, *ganjen!*

akhirnya semua berlanjut...
kami saling chat, saling bertukar email, photo, dan bertukar cerita.
dan dia bilang, "I'm not gay" dan cuman anggap gw "adik"
its OK lah.. gw juga ga ngarep macem2..

sampai akhirnya komunikasi terputus, karena bosan kali ya, ga ada yang dibahas, itu2 doang..
kerja, hobby, weekend, itu2 doang, ga ada yang menarik.

dan hari ini kembali dia nyapa gw, dan yah,,, iseng2 aja sih upgrade friendship, akhirnya kami chat, dan ternyata mgg lalu dia di bali seminggu...
Fyuhhhh, gw agak kecewa kok dia ga hubungin gw ya?? *ngarep* hahahaha

akhirnya dia cerita tentang tripnya ke Singapore dan Bali.
dan chat agak lama, dan diakhiri dengan, chat soon ya...


Cara yang bagus untuk ngelupain mantan adalah bertemu dengan orang2 baru.. dan ngga usah ngarep macem2 dulu deh....

*kayaknya saya semakin dewasah.....





Abon

Bali = Ben

Hi...
Cuaca di Jakarta lagi ga nentu yah, kadang2 panas banget, kadang Ujan gede.
kalo ujan enak-nya pelukan nih hahaha...

Sabtu lalu gw jadi lelaki sejati, *se-engaknya itu yang di bilang sama temen gw*
jadi sabtu lagu gw ikut offroad sama temen sepeda gw,
100 orang lebih dengan sepeda main lumpur di daerah serang.
pagi-pagi jam 06.00 udah berangkat dari jakarta, semua sepeda diangkut di Pick up dan truck, terus peserta naik mobil yang udah disiapkan.

sepanjang jalan, gw agak ragu, kira2 bisa ga ya?
maklum ini agak berat, sebelum2nya udah sering ikutan offroad, cuman yang ini udah digosipin bakal lebih berbahaya. secara cover gw ktawa2, dalam ati deg2an.

Offroad terakhir kali di daerah bogor, gw berhasil jatoh, dan rasanya lumayan.

tapi karena udah dijalan, udah dibayar, dan juga faktor gengsi. gw tetep ikut.
sampe di Serang, disambut ujan gede, terus kata road captain-nya, walaupun ujan biasanya jalan kok.
what??? hahahaha...

akhirnya selesai berdoa, dan cek sepeda kita jalan
track pertama 5kilo on road, masih beraspal dan hujan..
kemudian lanjut track makadam (jalan menanjak dan berbatu)... udah ngos-ngosan, tapi menyenangkan, mungkin 3kilo.. dan gw lagi2 berhasil
sempet nanya... "gini doang??"
apalagi sempet masuk kebun karet, tracknya lumayan nyaman, walaupun becek dan licin..

ternyata....
hahahahah, masuklah di single track..
lumpur, batu2, turunan, tanjakan, akar pohon... wedehhhhhhhh..
gw sempet jatuh beberapa kali, kepeleset, masuk lumpur, nyungsep, dan yang terakhir jadi oleh2 ampe skr, kepeleset dan lutut kepentok frame. Bengkak!

tapi track 48km itu berhasil gw lewatin.

Jujur, sepanjang perjalanan gw selalu mikirin mantan gw Ben...
Ben yang ngenalin gw sama sepeda. Ben yang bikin gw addict sama sepeda.
sepeda yang bikin gw jadi "cowo" yang punya adrenalin, sepeda yang bikin gw bangga kalo ternyata gw secara fisik ga lemah, sepeda gw bikin gw "sissy"...

dulu waktu sepedaan di Bali sama Ben, dia yang nuntun gw, ngarahin gw..
waktu gw ketakutan offroad di pulau nusa, dia nyemangatin gw,, gw pasti bisa, dia nungguin gw, dia khawatir sama gw...

kemarin, setiap ada tanjakan yang tinggi dan ketika gw mulai ngos-ngosan, dalam hati gw mikirin dia, dia, dia.
ini buat kamu Ben... Ini buat Ben...
dan ga tau kenapa gw mampu...

Gw kangen sama Ben.
apalagi ini bulan desember,
24 desember pertama kali kami ktemu.
jadi setiap desember gw mulai kena serangan mellow...

Ngehek!

fyuh......

Akhir desember ini lumayan dapat libur dari 24 des ampe 3 jan,,,,
mungkin pengen pulang kerumah di pulau seberang... ketemu keluarga, dan ponakan.. biar bisa lupain bali dan djogja dulu... (Bali = ben, djogja = ben)


Abon

Hm... he called me "Bitch"

Sedih deh... Curhat dong...

Temen gw bilang, gw kayak pelacur...
gara2 di Bangkok gw ktemu Steven, dan having sex, dan berbalas email..

katanya "Lo kok berubah gini.......

Jadi sedih...

gw cuman merasakan kesenangan kok, gw enjoy, gw enjoy Berhubungan dengan Bill, dan sekarang ama steven, dan juga beberapa Bule yang cuman chat di YM atau MSN..

Jadi sedih...

jadi harus gimana?




Abon

Steven..... and I started

He send me an email..

1st,
he said, he wrote " I miss your little tight ass " ... Silly, and its OK, at least he think of me.
i was surprise he send me an email.


2nd,
he gave me an info, that he will back to NY.

he send 3rd email

He told me, he became a model, *thai magazine* from the local Bangkok high society/fashion magazine called LIPS.
he send me his picture,
"the 40 most interesting people in Bangkok" special issue sponsored by ESPRIT
he's name, and... "Musical director" title.
he look great, fresh, and handsome.

OMG, i miss him!

and today he send me an email (again)

I will send you my gay song soon...

did I tell you guys, he is a singer, producer, and music director??

and he will send me he's gay song. I cant wait.

today he wrote he miss me (maybe my ass)..
and wrote, with stay 2 months febr-marc in thai.

Silly me, i was replied, "maybe we can meet in february, I will buy ticket and fly to BKK if you want"

and he wrote back "My thai BF will bday at 15 march"


hoohohohohohohohohohohoh

( I wish i'm thai gay guy now! hahaha )

PS: Congratulation for Indonesian soccer team, won 2-1 vers thailand 2 hours ago



OMG! steven!!!


Abon

Weekend di Cirebon

Hi...
udah senin lagi yah..

hari ini sedih banget, karena dapat info ticket concert-nya Maroon 5 udah sold out.
sedihnya.... bener2 sedih dah..
*tapi gw tetep optimis bisa nonton mereka april nanti*

Mas adam, perkosa saya yah... please!
hehehe...

Talking about cirebon...
yeah, weekend lalu gw sama beberapa temen jalan2 ke cirebon, karena, satu dari temen kost nikah, dan ga enak kalo ga dateng... jadi, rame2 (ber 5 doang sih), naik mobil kesana.
karena jauh banget, ga rela kalo dateng buat ngeliatin penganten doang, jadi diputusin buat sekalian weekend disana.

Jumat malem, (karena baru pada balik dari kantor) gw dan 4 teman yang lain, jalan ke cirebon.
Jam 22.00 dan berhasil "mendarat" jam 03.00pagi!
yooo oooollloooooooooooo, 6 jam aja loh dijalan! tepos dah pantat!

jadi cuman tidur sebentar, karena acara jam 09.00pagi.

Wedding was great, ada acara adat yang baru pertama kali gw liat.*yang namanya gw lupa hahahahaa*

Ada sedikit drama, dan tarian goyang karawang oleh beberapa penari cewe, yang bikin mata melek,
but sorry girls, I'm gay, kurang suka liat goyangnya... hehehhe..

but, sekali lagi, pemandangan dari upacara adat itu bener-bener bagus dan menarik.


suka!


Ada juga penari2 cowo yang megang payung tingkat,
seru juga, walaupun gerakan-nya gitu2 aja.

Senang banget bisa "lari" dari jakarta bentar dan nikmatin udara segar disana, sambil nyegerin otak.

Yahhh.. namanya juga homo ya, ngga lengkap kalo ga hunting!
*This blog is gay blog owner, musti ada ke-gay-an-nya hahahhaha*
sempet bosen karena ga ada yang lucu, ga ada yang bule, hahahhaha
tau2nya ada salah satu undangan yang nyelip... cowo local, 29-30an lah dan dateng sendiri hahahaha..

(kok ada yang tersembunyi di sini) hahahaha..
anyway, cuman buat seger2an mata aja, mencoba mengibur diri.

Setalah acara adat, ada akad nikah, dan lanjut resepsi-nya, dan lumayan membosankan, ga ada yang wah....
yang seru cuman upacara adatnya aja, karena mungkin memang baru sekali gw liat, lainnya sama aja, ada salaman, foto2, penyanyi, hehehehe..
ada beberapa hal unik dan beda dari kawinan biasanya.

seperti,





biasanya kalo kita ke kondangan kita bawa uang yang udah kita amplop-in, kalo yang gw liat kemarin, amplop disediain di meja buku tamu hehehe
jadi mau ga mau harus ngisi yah hahahah





Abis acara nikahan, akhirnya bisa muter-muter cirebon..
seru juga, udaranya segar, (mungkin pas agak mendung)
gw juga sempet ke Majalengka dan Indramayu......

mungkin nanti mau share pic-nya :)


Ada yang udah nonton THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA: THE VOYAGE OF THE DAWN TREADER ???
rencananya 2day mau nonton *sendiri* hiks hiks...


have a great week temen2




Abon

Steven....

Hi (Lagi) selamat sore..
Lagi dengerin lagunya sherina, sambil nulis blog, sama nu green tea yang rasa madu, dan dingin, udara sore juga agak dingin.
hari ini kerjaan agak padet banget, banyak paperwork yang harus diselesain, dan beberapa finance report.
kemarin baru aja nyelesain shooting new clip buat band ABG yang lagi naik daun ituh...
salah satunya ada anak dari Om Adi MS, ganteng yah dia... hehehe...
anyway, shooting was done, and was OK.
cuman report yang nyisa.

Now back to Steven..
Steven introduce him as a singer, for indie band, he is front man of his band, dan kedatangannya ke Bangkok untuk Tour.
dalam beberapa jam dia banyak bercerita tentang dia, band-nya, ex BF-nya, keluarganya. dan cerita tentang SEX.
Can i share my sex story here?

hmmmm...
maybe not. ga mau jadi blog porno deh.

Mungkin kemarin gw kecewa sama Bill yang ngga bisa ktemu gw, dan akhirnya gw "lari" ke Steven..
and Because he is my type, and I'm he's type (well at least he said that, i dont know its true or not)
Like I was wrote, we are an adult, we chat, we meet, we kiss, and we f**k.
he treat me good, and i was enjoy.

I'm not having sex until August, I thought I will do with Bill,
and because this "accident", I cant meet Bill, and Finally meet Steven... and Steven did sex with me, and I really2 enjoy.
He is single (maybe)
He is great in bed
and..
He own a great smile ( Yeah, I'm in love with his smile ).

My flight schedule at friday was 20:15 from Bangkok to Jakarta, and Had to check out at 12:00 from my hotel, and at 10:00 I Found my self slept and naked with Steven.

Bill said will meet me at 15:00pm and drive me to Airport.

I said to Steven, I will back to hotel, and do check out, and take my stuff and I will stay here until 14:30pm, Steven Accepted, and DONE!
at 13:00 I'm there..
and we did some activity...

Waktu gw ada di-Apartement-nya, I was wear T shirt, with "Jakarta" print. he ask me to give my t shirt to him, and I was said, this is to small for you, and he said, "for my Ex BF". And I gave it to him, and he gave me he's t shirt, (too big, but last sunday i went to tailor, and make it small).
he also gave me he's CD album, solo album, with his picture on the cover, and also hi sign the CD.
(wew.. I was fu*ked by star) hohohoho.
he walk with me at 14:30 to BTS station, because I will meet Bill.
and...

he kiss me at station, and i really really enjoyed!
(well you can call me bitch!)
Got kiss after long long long time.... and i still remember his great smile, not sure will meet again or not. but I hope so....

15:00
Met Bill at car part near BTS station.
God! I miss him! I gave him hug, and I said can I kiss you??? hahahha, ga berhasil.
before we go to Airport, gw go for dinner together, still 16:00pm, but its OK, i called late lunch hahah, buat dia sih makan malam...
ga banyak yang kami obrolin, hanya, kata2 minta maaf...
dan forget it..
tangan gw ga berenti megang tangan dia waktu dijalan.
Jadi pengen banget punya pacar....



he still my bestfriend, and its OK, he's priority is he's partner.
so, we go to airport, and Finally he gave me kiss, and we kissed at carpark.









after that we stayed at starbu*** cafe for coffee and tea.


dan kami berpisah di depan pintu passport control.
I gave him big big HUG, and felt want to kiss him (again). OK, one kiss.....
jadi gak lama.... Bill cuman bilang minta maaf, dan ya ampunn biilllll
ga papa kaleeeeeeeeeeeeee ahhh... hehehehe...



We will Always be a Friend....

Btw, Steven send me an email, and wrote "miss me, and miss your ...... ..... ....."
hahahha.... he gave me Link of hes song, and Maybe I will share his song here.
Heard some of his song's from CD that he gave to me.. well, im in trouble! to soon think about he's smile hahahahhaa...



Selamat sore semua!




Abon
(ini yang namanya naik kelas??)

OK, this is about Steven!

Who's steven?
new one? Let me tell you first, why i met him, kiss him, and *you know what i did right??*

So, Thursday, 25 nov 2010, sedikit menyedihkan buat gw...
Bill dateng, (ketika itu dia datang dan gw sedang bercerita di blog gw tentang dia, dan gw akhirnya menulis... "eh, Bill dateng... lanjut ntar deh)

dia datang, dan bilang " I have to say sorry, I can hangout with you today, the reason is BF things, and we have deal before about this " dan gw pun sedih. serius, gw sedih banget. will be alone and have no idea! dia juga membatalkan rencana menginap bersama, dan dia berjanji untuk nganter ke airport jumat malam, but before that we will have early dinner together.

hari itu gw pindah hotel, called Take A Nap hotel, at Rama IV area, near silom road, and near with BTS Station. mau diapain lagi ya? itu kan pacar orang. dan gw akhirnya memutuskan untuk jalan2 sendiri.

Kamis, 11.00 gw dateng ke hotel dan check in, hotel is cheap, about 1000thb a night, clean, dan lumayan bagus, you can get free breakfast, free wifi. I was stay for a night. after check in i go for a walk, and brought my map.
karena gw ga bersemangat, gw akhirnya cari makan siang, dan kembali kekamar.
chat dengan beberapa teman lewat YM.
Bill send me text, and he said, I hope i can meet you at 3.30 today.
and he didn't come.

Finally, I came to manjam site.
I saw some status..
-Looking for friends
-Looking for chat
-Checking message
-Looking for meet later
-Looking for meet Now

and i gone to "looking for meet later & looking for meet now"
I choose white man, up 30 (yes my type) and give them message
about 4-5 man. about 2 persons replied and cant meet me.
one man, said, already have a date
one man, we trade MSN first, did chat, and he ask for video chat, and he want webcam sex..
(Hey,, i need real hahahahha) so, tonight will alone, garing, basi.

and finally i saw this tempting picture... but he just "checking message", and i gave him message.
and he replied, and said.. I would like to meet you, tomorrow i free all day, and tonight i will have a dinner with a friend, so cant meet you tonight, but i'm not sure with my friend, so i will let you know soon, or I can ring you if you still awake, hm... how about tomorrow?

I was said, tomorrow i will leave bangkok at night about 20:15.
we trade phone number.
and he rang me.
he offered for breakfast together, at vegetarian restaurant, take BTS from your hotel, he gave me direction, and finally i said OK.
he said, maybe we can go to temple or lunch together.

i was think about, "I really hope he cancel with his friend hahahahhaa"
but, no info from him.
so, after did manjam, i just slept at my room!

I went to malaysian halal restaurant called "Chili Padi, at silom soi 1" and God! Alone, lonely... hiks hiks, I miss my ex, I miss Bill...
Got back to hotel soooooo early, and Steven didn't call.
I sit on my ass at lobby, and did chat with friends at YM, got a bottle of singa beer, checking email, facebook, did YM, and I've heard someone talked with indonesian words.
Two girls, sibling.
gw nyapa duluan, dan akhirnya pembicaraan berlanjut sampai jam steng 12 malam, masih terlalu pagi di sana.
kami berkenalan dan bertukar cerita tentang pekerjaan dan traveling, was great, and we trade facebook ID.

at 23:something steven send me text "see you tomorrow".

time for sleep......

05:23am he send me text, "Call or sms me when you wake"
i send him text, just give me direction so i can save in my phone.
he gave me direction.
and i'm sooooooooooooo nervous!
will do sex after august?? hahahaha such a long long time for me.

he rang me again 'I forgot to tell you that i have an allergy with perfume, any kind of perfume, so dont use that OK?

ok...
Finally i met him at BTS station, he stand in front of me... "yes, he is sexy" with his glasses, and look straight. hahaha
he offered about new plan...
so, near here.. have a chicken rice restaurant and near my house, we can buy that and bring to my house or you still want to go to vegetarian restaurant??
and of course i choose CHICKEN RICE ;)................... too brave son!

Beli nasi ayam, dan dibawalah gw ke apartemen-nya.

we are an adult, we know what we want to do.
first time he show me he's tattoos, he got 3 tattoos, and this is my chance to touch hes body.
during eat our breakfast, we talk about what he did, what i did, for work, for life.
what make me interest is.. if someone share about his love story.
he shared to me about he's ex BF is born in indonesia, grow up in HK, and living in newyork, and living together with him about 15 years. weww...
and next interesting story about another ex for about 2 years, hehehe..

can i continue later???

call me bitch now..... fyuhhh......
enjoy life aja deh.


Bill drive me to airport at friday night.. I will let you know later
time for swim now...


see ya!