Lupa sama kamu???

Hi Ben, How are you,
to be honest, aku gak mikirin kamu banget..
hari minggu malam lalu, aku agak tersadar oleh cinta butaku.
aku di ingatkan (mungkin) di"tampar" sama psikiaterku.

aku ngobrol banyak sama dia,
aku meluapkan segala kesedihan aku,
dia kasi aku email.....

Dear A,

You told me you are sad and - sometimes - you are crying too, because you feel unhappy. As long we are sad and as long we allow ourselves to feel unhappy, we mainly will attract people who are sad and unhappy (or people who are able to support us to become sad and unhappy). On the other hand, provided that we ourselves are really happy and full of joy, we mainly will attract people who are really happy and full of joy as well (or who support us to turn in that joyful direction). It's always just our own choice and nobody else can ever be responsible for our bad condition. We are our own master, even if we don't want to realize it at all.

A, stop your negative thoughts about your former friend and about your sadly destiny! Finish your sadness, you are able to stop immediately if you really want!

Start to realize that you everytime in your life will harvest what you have sowed before. There is no exception, not at all! Change your thoughts, turn them from negative to positive and change the seed you are sowing all the time - the better the quality of the seed, the better the quality of the crop. All those aspects are results following "The Law Of Attraction".

The only way to become a happy person is to allow ourselves to be happy, the more sadness we allow, the more sadness will come in our life...

A, there are so many reasons to be happy. Find out at least 10 reasons and let me know, send me a list of all the reasons you can find and I will continue to help you...

BIG HUGS

G

aku berpikir banyak setelah terima email dari dia..
aku pikirkan dengan matang dan cerna dengan hati2.. kemudian aku buat yang dia mau
aku kaget ketika jujur sama diri aku sendiri tentang... 10 reasons make me happy

1. Thinking of Ben
2. Meet Ben
3. Hug Ben
4. Kiss ben
5. Send an email to Ben
6. Call ben
7. Dining out with Ben
8. Share with friends story about Ben
9. chat with Ben
10. Reminding about happiness was happen with Ben

God!
ternyata kebahagiaan aku semua dari Ben,
aku sempat berpikir alasan aku untuk bahagia, Ponakanku yang lucu, ketemu teman, Belanja, hangout, cinema with closed friend, timezone, J.co, EX, Citos, Koleksi sepatu keds, menghitung koleksi Novel...
ternyata ngga... itu palsu, setelah aku mengalami kesenangan itu, aku sadar, kalau semua kurang.. aku kurang senang, palsu.. kalo balik ke kamar, aku pasti sedih lagi, ingat kamu, pengen share sama kamu, pengen cerita
dan paling sakit kalo ngebayangin kamu tidur dengan orang lain.

akhirnya mataku terbuka..
apalagi setelah G bilang "aku harus bersyukur sama apa yang aku dapat"
aku kembali bikin list "rasa syukur" ku (selain hal tentang kamu)
1. Hidup
2. Pekerjaan bagus
3. Uang yang pasti ada, dan ga kekurangan
4. Teman2 yang baik
5. Ponakan yang lucu
6. Aku ergolong pintar
7. barang2 branded
8. bisa mengkoleksi banyak sepatu
9. punya 3 HP, laptop, ipod.
10. Sering traveling ke Banyak kota, bahkan Luar Negeri.

aku focuskan kebahagiaan ku pada list2 yang aku buat
dan aku sengaja melupakanmu, (gak sepenuhnya lupa, hanya mengurangi), mengganti lagu2 cinta di Ipod dengan lagu2 penuh semangat, up beat, dan mengubah status2 di FB dengan semangat. sudah 2 hari aku sedikit berhasil..
menyenangkan mencoba mengikhlaskan kamu tidur dengan siapapun yang kamu mau, chat dengan siapapun, dan menyenangkan ngga menunggu kamu untuk chat sama aku.

memang ada sedih yang luar biasa besar, hanya saja aku coba2 kuat..
dan sepertinya berhasil dalam 2 hari ini...
aku berhasil menciptakan kesenangan, dan memang aku butuh itu... aku butuh kesenangan yang lain...

hari ini, selasa, aku tulis di statusku "happy valentine, for every single person in the world"
sekarang, aku sengaja gak buka Manjam, dan gak "nengok" Manjammu...
kamu OL? have a great chat Ben..

Good Morning Ben,
have a nice day, I miss you.



A
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